jotting thoughts... and the beginning of my inquisitive year

13 January 2016

I found an image that pretty much sums up  how I feel.

my head has been swimming for months...
I have been struggling to reel it in...
or put anything into practice
because its swirling and churning out ideas so fast I can't act on thing.

To be honest....
I have felt like I had been a part of an imaginary race... at some stage I had stopped for a drink and been left behind and I just didn't have it in me to catch up again.
whats more I felt like the race I was in just wasn't important anymore.

But...if I stopped running that old familiar race.... what would I do instead?
It felt pressure to find a new interest... a new passion...
but it wasn't that simple.

Tonight while finishing off the book "Big Magic" by Elizabeth Gilbert I read a passage I loved...

“You might spend your whole life following your curiosity and have absolutely nothing to show for it at the end – except one thing. You will have the satisfaction of knowing that you passed your entire existence in devotion to the noble human virtue of inquisitiveness.”

Maybe....if I stop will just find me.
or maybe...Ill just become old and content with being inquisitive...
and that will be more than enough.


  1. Love love this Mardi. I don't ever feel like I fit anywhere or have found my passion but feel the pressure. Beautiful way of saying it. Xx

    1. This post had been on my mind for so long...but finding the words was the toughest thing so thank you for your reassurance. Maybe we are peas in a pod Mel... and 'our thing' is to just be inquisitive and curious. Perhaps we are the blessed ones because our minds are so open to all the possibilities.. who knows.

  2. Anonymous6:11 am

    Oh Mardi, you could be speaking the words of my heart. Like Melanie (comment above), I too never feel like I belong anywhere or fit in. I feel like I am a passenger on the lives of other people all the time and my only word to describe it is to feel 'misplaced' and it's truly not the nicest feeling. I recently found this quote and it summed me up completely so I thought I'd share it with you.

    'I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists. One where my heart is full. And my soul is understood.'

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts and I do hope that you find the direction you are seeking.
    Much love
    xxx Janelle

    1. What a beautiful quote Janelle... thanks for sharing. Wouldn't it be lovely if a someone handed us a handbook to our life and we could all just work through it starting with step 1.
      I feel sort of better even just putting pen to paper...and realising what my mind was doing.
      I hope you too find your happy place too....your life has changed so much this year you almost need a new handbook.
      Much love..xx

  3. I completely understand what you and Janelle are saying, I have never felt that I belong anywhere, hopefully we will all find what we are looking for

    1. Oh I hope so too Jen.. I have been writing myself a list of the ideas I have swirling around and Ive made a pact to try some new things this year... lets weed out what I truly love and what just seems like a good idea.
      I think...if we arent happy its up to us to make some changes... meet a new circle of people.. try a new hobby.. overhaul our wardrobe... whatever we need to shake things up. Hugs to you for an exciting new year..Mardi xx